God loves a trier

I was about to write in Spanish since I strongly believe that my English writing skills are not that good, but I contemplated the possibility of showing this text to you eventually and changed my mind. Be prepared for a handful of grammar errors and prepositions poorly used, Beth. 

You are probably the person I missed the most during winter break and the one I was craving more to see once I came back. Allow me to be straight: you do me good. And this is almost a selfish conduct since I still don't believe I can repay you the same way. Hanging around with you has improving not only my English, but my heart and soul. I love the way you express yourself and how you manage to see the beauty and the light in everyone else around you. That is something I look up to. I am proud of the things you tell me, even when some of my poisoned self has made its way into your head and you end up filling a noise complain and being sassy AF because you hate your flatmates. I am proud of you in so many ways, and I admire you the same. As a fencer (you killer!), as a friend, as a flatmate to be, as a person. As a human being. I feel there is so much I can still learn form you and I feel blessed for having your presence hoovering over my life as a tiny beautiful butterfly.

And keeping the selfish mode, I like protecting you and I like feeling needed. I still remember the nights we spent sadly ranting about the disgusting people you happen to life with right now. But, speaking from my heart, I liked those nights. I liked being called when you were done with the situation and all you wanted was a relief. Sadly, you got a savage brute as response to your prayers, but I cannot help being ridiculously mad at anyone that dares to bother you, in any way. I like you being happy and safe. This is a task I have auto-assigned and feel free to cut me out whenever you consider it. As I told you before, I don't want you to think that I am being patronising with you just because our ages. I really think you have a lot to teach me. 

And I will try to maintain the level and being the friend I would love to be for you. 

I'll try my best. As we both know, God loves a trier. 

I cannot wait for our flat life to start next September. There are still too many things to do.